How do you restrict yourself from crying and having tears when you remember someone you really loved or cared about? Again I keep hearing that phrase “don’t consider someone a priority, when they consider you just an option” a lot but I don’t see it working. Someone who you were really good friends with but then they backed off. You gave a lot of time, energy and loyalty to that relationship.
I never believed something I went through could change me. It did and I do acknowledge it. I have become a bit mean. I don’t reply to my friends for days, I don’t stay in touch with people that often, it is totally okay with me if I don’t talk to someone, just because ONE person did a horrible thing to me and hurt me. I don’t feel so in to friendships (online, phone or physical – real life) any more and I keep on questioning things and becoming cautious.
Recently I deleted someone from my MSN, Gmail and my phone. Someone sent me a lot of messages. I was so cold that I read those messages and it had no affect on me. I know my behaviour has hurt them a lot. Yet, I acted like this. Later, I did cry. What’s gotten in to me? I was not like this before. I used to be fun to be around with, I used to be someone people loved to talk to. I used to be a jolly and fun loving person. After this incident, I have become so alienated, and all the time I keep thinking about what happened. I need to forget the incident and the person and move on.
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