POiSON WORLD

It happened so quickly that i didn’t even realize what i was doing…
I told you I wanna end that game…
And you didn’t even realize that I was waiting for something else…
Much much bigger that that…

I wanted you to argue…
I wanted you to beg mE to stay…
To yell at mE…
And get mad about my choice…
I wanted you to prove other that they are wrong and I am the one who is right…
But instead…
You did just nothing….You did nothing to hold me back…

I was amazed at your calmness….I was shocked by your reaction…but there was nothing i could do now… And maybe I truly decided to leave you right at that second…when I saw no care in your eyes…nothing in yours words to hold me…
I got lost in my own game so easily….I had a feeling like it was you who was leaving…

And now as so much time has passed…
No…i don’t miss you… i miss the one who I lost that day…. And we both know that you were never in love with me…never…I was just a time pass to you…nothing else….

Yet i loved you so much…
And still do….

Just our loves were different from each other…We never wanted the same and non of us was trying to give up, until one day…

I sacrificed mY own love in order to kill yours…..

I didnt suicide or killed mYSELf…
I just stopped the way I used to live…
I just left the way I was…
And now…
I am just nothing but a memory which is soon gonna fade away….