Posts Tagged ‘forgive’
Betrayed Love
May 19th, 2013, posted in Ink On PAPER, LoVE, Scarface'S DIARY
You teach me now how cruel you’ve been – cruel and false. Why did you despise me ?? Why did you betray your own heart ? I have not found comfort since you broke my heart. You shouldn’t had done that. You have killed yourself. Yes, you may kiss me and cry and say you are sorry. You loved me – what right had you to leave me? What right – answer me – Because misery, and degradation, and death, and nothing that God or Satan could inflict would have parted us, you, of your own will did it. I have not broken your heart – you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine.
I was no different than them, yet I was saved.. I had left all that path long ago.. And I left it for us.. Only for us… I had always explained to you the way of life of a people who say every sort of wicked thing about me because I had not showed interest in them as they wanted. I left the dark paths of their duplicity , told you about my past and kept telling you about it from time to time. I had turned my eyes toward the light where there is salvation, truth and love. You where my light.. You where my hope…
Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves.
But you exiled me from your life. You did’t believe me, like you did ever knew me .You didnt trusted me. You didnt did what I have told you. You did the worst thing to me that anyone can do to anyone else. Let them believe that there is love,trust and wanted and then showed that all was a lie infact a joke.
Thus with your lips you have denounced me, while my heart, bleeding within me, called you tender names. You made me a joke among your friends among your people and giving me a scar with each joke. Things have made me cruel… Each scar has made me SCARfACE. . Â . Â Now scars exist to show that I existed.
So this was betrayal. It was like being left alone in the desert at dusk without water or warmth. It left my mouth dry and will broken. It sapped my tears and made me hollow. Hard for me to take breath, to live.
Do I want to live ?? I can not live without my life !! I can not live without my soul !! What kind of living will it be when you . I may not rest as long as I live. There is nothing like wounded affection for giving poignancy to anger.
You said I killed you–haunt me then. The murdered do haunt their murderers.
You said you cared nothing for my sufferings !! And yea why would you after all I was a clown. A big joke.
Than “It was a mistake,” you said. But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine. So much the worse for me that I am strong. I still have love for you.. But you annoy me the ways I cannt even imagine. And worse part is you are still doing it. Repeating the mistakes over again and again. And not learning from it.. Not doing what you have been told to do.. And that drives me mad !!
Blame, disrespect, betrayal, and the withholding of affection damage the roots from which love grows. Love can only survive these injuries if they are acknowledged, healed and rare. But you are not even ready to do a single thing. You always think about yourself not for me. You never did. All you think about it is to feed your ego. To satisfy your ego. You never think about us but just about only you.
You always ask why I am always mad and angry. You always ask why I keep repeating myself over and over again. Â It is because you havnt learned. You are still doing the same thing. You are not even sorry. Not single bit.
I don’t want to be there, simply because the idea of me being gone is too…scary. I want to be someone’s everything. I want fire and passion, and love that’s returned, equally. I want to be someone’s heart… Even if it means breaking my own.
Mayosi [Hopelessness]
April 2nd, 2013, posted in ANiMALS, Art, MESSAGEs, Sufism
What does really come in our mind when we think of this word “Mayosiâ€, “Hopelessness†and “Bleakness’, why are we getting into this thing and according to me this word is in general use these days. Even I have become its victim every time and forth, and why on Earth could something like this happen, don’t we have Faith in our Creator, don’t we have Faith in the strength of Dua. We are Mayoos over not getting the right Job, the right field, the right cell phone or the thought to loose something very dear to us creates Mayoosi, even mayoosi can be found in the slightest of our daily routine.
We being Muslims aren’t fortunate enough that we have been given so much to get guidelines from be it Quran, Hadith there is so much in it, that can be of greater help. But we the Muslims don’t believe in the power of Faith (Emaan) or Dua(Prayer) the power that people really consider in these days is Money, and after that Contacts.
Sometimes I even get bit by the venom of this predator though I pray , but I can’t get my problem as in what is the thing that keeps on eating me chunk by chunk and the pain keeps on incrementing on each bite, I just have to get rid of all this grime, but how could I what is the thing that is deficient. I read some place that narrated to me in a way that “An Empty Mind is a devils Workshop†n m 100% aware of this fact but m not just getting myself into anything these days. Just to distract myself I have created my website type blog that may be this writing can be of greater help to me and for me its proving to be. I was literary planning to right something about what actually is going on in my mind and today m able to type down all what there was, that my friend is really true that an empty mind is a devils warehouse I should say. N it’s a shame indeed for me that being a Muslim having faith in Allah, praying 5 times a day I still loose hope in my own dua.
Oh Allah! Please Forgive me for loosing hope in your Qudrat , please forgive me for thinking otherwise, Oh Allah! You’re the Merciful grant me the strength and patience, grant me the will to make my own decisions. Oh Allah! My dearest grant me the one and only I wish to have.
Give To Get
September 5th, 2012, posted in MESSAGEs
GOD Forgives
January 20th, 2012, posted in Islam, MESSAGEs
It was narrated that in the days that Musa (Alahi salaam) wandered with Bani Israel in the desert an intense drought befell them.
Together, they raised their hands towards the heavens praying for the blessed rain to come. Then, to the astonishment of Musa (Alahi salaam) and all those watching, the few scattered clouds that were in the sky vanished, the heat poured down, and the drought intensified.
It was revealed to Musa that there was a sinner amongst the tribe of Bani Israel whom had disobeyed Allah (Subhanahu wa ta’ala) for more than forty years of his life. ?Let him separate himself from the congregation, Allah (Subhanahu wa ta’ala) told Musa (Alahi salaam). Only then shall I shower you all with rain.
Musa (Alahi salaam) then called out to the throngs of humanity, There is a person amongst us who has disobeyed Allah for forty years. Let him separate himself from the congregation and only then shall we be rescued from the drought. That man, waited, looking left and right, hoping that someone else would step forward, but no one did. Sweat poured forth from his brow and he knew that he was the one.
The man knew that if he stayed amongst the congregation all would die of thirst and that if he stepped forward he would be humiliated for all eternity.
He raised his hands with a sincerity he had never known before, with a humility he had never tasted, and as tears poured down on both cheeks he said: O Allah, have mercy on me! O Allah, hide my sins! O Allah, forgive me!As Musa (Alahi salaam) and the people of Bani Israel awaited for the sinner to step forward, the clouds hugged the sky and the rain poured. Musa (Alahi salaam) asked Allah (Subhanahu wa ta’ala), O Allah, you blessed us with rain even though the sinner did not come forward. And Allah (Subhanahu wa ta’ala) replied, O Musa, it is for the repentance of that very person that I blessed all of Bani Israel with water.
Musa (Alahi salaam), wanting to know who this blessed man was, asked, Show him to me O Allah! Allah (Subhanahu wa ta’ala) replied, O Musa, I hid his sins for forty years, do you think that after his repentance I shall expose him?
SubhanAllah..
Dear Allah, Forgive me and all my Muslim brothers and Sisters for our sins… Ameen
